Travelling through Time and Space

Where does time go? One minute it was the summer and i was going about my business, lots to do and people to see and the next it iwa a new year….not just that but a month in to a new year. All my intentions of blogging on a regular basis disappeared into a void somewhere; I am sure you know the feeling….you think ’I will do that later’ and then of course; later never comes.

I have never been one for routine, my working life has never had a proper schedule, even in the early years, when I was training as a hairdresser I would spend three days in the salon (long days I may add) and one day at the London College of Fashion. My boss preferred it that way, we got an extra day off and he got a salon that was open to 8pm every night; except  Saturday as he knew we would all be going out.

So my life was always a bit haphazard and when you work for yourself that doesn’t change. You are the one who controls the diary but as a therapist you find that most people want to see you when they are not at work, so evenings and weekends can disappear.  As I always worked weekends they are not sacred to me and so I find that my working week often goes beyond the five days. It isn’t helped by the fact that I love what I do so much that it often doesn’t feel like work. I get such satisfaction out of doing the sessions that I do that it sometimes beats socialising…….that is no refection on the people in my life; who I love dearly. But I do sometimes forget to leave time for me….and that also includes leaving time to blog and do all of the social media stuff that is required these days.

I find myself planning yet another trip to the US, back to California, to speak again at the Conscious Life Expo on the 6th of Feb. I have friends there now and so the arrangements get a little more tricky when you need to fit everyone in and arrange the schedule around them all. There has to be a combination of going with the flow and rigid timelines……..completely contradictory ideas; of course. My life does sometimes feel like it is full of contradictions; I teach people to love and honour themselves and to put themselves first. They know that until they do no one else will and so to live their best, and happiest, life they have to really think about who they are, what they want and generate good feeling states inside of themselves first.

I know all of this and, for the most part, I live in a world that is magical, but sometimes, particularly when I realise that I haven’t done the things I need to do to promote me and my business; to let people know I am here and that the work I do can hold huge value for them- I do sometimes despair and it takes a real discipline to practice what I preach and not go into negative self talk; to not beat myself up; to not feel as though I have failed. I do chuckle sometimes when I see just how tested I am to follow my own advice. So here I am, in amongst all the things I need to do to get to LA and deliver the most inspiring talk that I can; writing my blog. I intend this year to give time to the things that are important to me and even though that still revolves around my work I am going to make time for the other things too.

I will remember to stop and catch a great sunset, to go dancing, to be with people that I love and sometimes to just sit and breathe and be thankful for all the amazing things that happen in my life.  I know that whatever I do is an adventure and I trust that I am always in the place that I need to be; if you are like me and impatient for the next thing to start that can be easier said than done…..but the more I bring myself back to that place the easier it gets and the easier it gets the more I am reminded that this is the place where I want to be; this is what I want to spend my time and my focus on.

Where is it that your time goes ......... if it isn’t spent doing what you love, if you do not feel satisfied at the end of  your day, if you do not feel as though you are making a difference....to someone, anyone....even just yourself......then it may be time to think about doing something else. Life is nothing more than what you make it; you choose; you decide.